I’m a relative noobie on the cannabis growing scene and have gotten far more out of this
forum than I could ever put in. There isn’t a chance in hell I’ll ever be able to pay forward the
information I’ve used to get to where I am now. But in all fairness, I’m not that far along at all.
Besides the tips, suggestions and advice I’ve gotten, the friendly banter, side splitting humor, the mind blowing revelations and cheerful disposition of 99% of this community. makes even the
tough times all the more bearable, but from time to time it seems like everything goes to sh%t
The past week it’s been one of those times. Everything is going great until it isn’t. Not that I’m
encountering a crop killing disaster or I’ve ruined another few plants. It’s more like “I should
have seen this coming and acted quicker” type deal. Like any cascade, it’d not limited to just
one level or layer. It’s a quick and swift kick in the pollen sacks. It takes all the wind out of
your sails and plants you square on your ass, only to try and find the solution all the while
believing you’ve done right up to that point. It can be disheartening, frustrating, maddening,
beleaguered and down right defeated. As you’re feeling this way, you’ve still got to figure out
a solution and fix the problem you’ve created or facilitated to begin with. It’s hard as hell to
find the motivation or the will sometimes to backtrack on yourself and correct the issue.
The biggest slap is, it takes twice as much time and energy to get things back to where they
need to be than to have gone straight there in the beginning. Easier said than done right?
That’s when you NEED to remember why you got into this hobby to begin with. If it was easy
everyone would be doing it and where is the fun in that? Don’t let the mistakes get you down
or leave you beaten in a corner asking yourself “what you did wrong”. Everyone that has done
ANYTHING that they have been passionate about has felt this way at one point or another in
the process of perusing that hobby or activity. I’ve felt beaten up and stepped on these past 3
days because I let a problem get out of hand when I knew it was coming. I just should have acted sooner.
I’m sharing this because if there is any one else out there that has ever felt like this or feels
that way now, you’re not alone. AND if you haven’t felt like this before you WILL. It’ not easy
to piss away 2-3 months of work and attention just to watch it wither away on you. It feels like
such a waste. Don’t let it get you down, don’t let it eat you up inside. Take control of the
problem and get back to work. The easy way out is to throw in the towel and say “F - IT” I’ll
start all over again. You’ll never get that time back nor will you ever get a chance to turn
something around and bring it to fruit (so to speak). Getting a serious case of the “F#CK IT’s”
is the bad way to approach this kind of problem and it won’t help you out in the future.
So if you’ve reached this point before or feeling this way now because something that comes
easy to some people might not come easy for you just yet. Hang in there, chin up and charge
ahead. Not gonna say it’s easy to turn off feeling like this, but it gets better once you decide to
head butt the bastard and address the problem you’re encountering. Just remember, you’re
not alone in this, we’ve all been there and currently I’m there now. BUT I know what I have
to do. I hope this will help someone at some point because it really does suck thinking you’ve
lost a few months of your time to a stupid overlooked mistake.
