Wow. Still praying for you daily although I sense you’re aready got all of this. I pray for your wisdom and discernment. This will play out over time. Its sort of exciting aa every day is new, and to be able to put your trust in Him is a good anchor. So many moving parts. I too am debating stopping smoking and growing until im in another season of life. I wanted all my life to have a job where I can smoke without worrying about it. I got one and I really feel like God put me here and now that I can smoke, my anxiety has escalated. I feel the Spirit urging me often to stop. Not because its wrong but because theres something better if im willing to give up something so dear to me. Got the wife to consider it with me. Its been a huge part of my identity since I was 13 years old. I keep thinking of Peterson’s reference to King Arthur quest and the knights, and they all began in the part of the forest that looks darkest to them. The thought being, that the thing you most need to find, is in the place you least want to look. The place that looks darkest to you. Thats where the treasure is. God bless you my sister. Keep your head up and moving forward.
