Check my journal for a rollercoaster of me going crazy to keep up with my girls, and I’m pretty satisfied.
Should I be proud?
If so, praise me ahhaha I’m in a really dark and bad period lately, thinking about - well, ending my existence once and for all but striving to go on because I have things to do and my loved ones (parents and this little plants) would get them heart broken if I do.
So sad. I wish there was a way.
By the way here’s the pics and some more of the results of 5 Critical+2.0 under a 400watt hps.
Don’t want to appear borderline, but I’m trying to smile and make people happy all along but it’s hard sometimes
Take a look and give me some tips for future grows.
Know where your coming from been there myself. But on the flip side just look, you got a room full of buds that’s looking really good. I would call the lst a success by the amount of bud sites. And the trunks on them things are awesome
Hang in there, been there before and still here at 70. Sometimes life really sucks an then a new door opens up to you. Plants look good, your a good farmer. Don’t screw up you sound young and there’s alotta life to do still. Try to make yourself happy while your at it.
Well you put a smile on our faces! I really hope growing these plants can help you from ending your existence. I’m sorry for whatever you’re going through but man, you grow beautiful plants!
Had to come back, I’ve had experiances in my life that changed me forever. I looked for help, if it’s that bad seek help it’s out there, therapist’s, phycologist’s, even a good friend. If anybody says anything negitive about it tell them to fuck off ( they need help too). At 70 I still see a therapist at the V.A. please don’t fuck up your part of our family.
Plants look great! I’d be proud if it were my garden. Only recommendation is look for some help, seriously. We have had family and close friends end their lives and you never really recover.
Wonderful grow bro. Just admire your grow, sit and become one with that site, it can help your mind. We all at sometime in our lives get down, real down but ya gotta think that maybe your problems maybe over but can create issues for others that your never would want. happy growing. this hit for you
