Hey @peachfuzz I deeply feel your angst. Though none of us can endure this moment for you, we are all here to support and listen. Its just the frailty of the human condition. Right before my mom passed (damnit, now im crying) she told me similar things and to celebrate her life. You had your map shattered and now you are having to remap everything. That takes time and you’ll never be that boy again, but with the passing of the old comes the newness of thhe unknown. Sometimes its enough to just keep remapping the new world and that can be its own quest. Try to find light in the smallest of things and focus on the good in life. Thats tough these days buts its there. I started by exiting social media and quit following the news. Its just a cesspool of negativity that intentionally ignores the good. I buried myself in Jordan Petersons work and it changed my focus and direction.
I will keep you and your family in my prayers.
. So if you need to talk there will be someone willing to help.
for you my friend
